As I sit here, in the midst of a busy season (an amazing and overwhelming season) where I have come to see many of my own weaknesses, I woke up remembering how awesome God is. In 5 years of business we have experienced many amazing highs, but also some pretty significant lows…like some break-me-down-crying-on-the-floor-not-knowing-what-to-do-or-how-to-breathe lows.
I’ve realized that people don’t really mention how being a business owner teaches you how to ride the waves. You hear partially true “pros” about running your own business (make your own schedule, traveling the world, no cap to the money you can make) but you rarely hear about the slow seasons. I believe that every business goes through seasons of plenty and then we all have our rough months. When business is good, life is good – but when its slow it can take a toll. In our 5 years of business we have learned SO MUCH, and we have experienced so much. We have gone through months where we didn’t know how in the world we were going to pay our bills, charging to credit cards as they creep even closer to the limit, wondering how long its going to take us to pay them back off. During those times all we could do was trust that God had it all under control.
And want to hear the secret? God does have it under control.
“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV
I remember driving to the office one day with my babies in the backseat asking me where we were going and responding “We are going to see if God put some money in the mailbox for us.” Of course, that prompted them to ask whether God put money in there every single time we went to check the mail for quite a while. Of course there is a back story, and it comes from one of those really rough months when we didn’t know how we were going to get the bills paid. It was the beginning of the month and I was sitting in the office working when all the sudden I remembered that we owed $300 in tithes. I looked in our account and we only had like $600 dollars for the month and I needed half of that to owed tithes. I knew once I paid the tithes, I’d be left with $300 for the month which could barely buy groceries let alone pay bills…but I paid the tithes anyway. I broke down crying and prayed, “God this is Yours and I don’t know how, and I don’t know when, but I trust that You will make a way!” and you know what? Ten minutes later I was like, I’m going to go check the mailbox…so I did and you know what I found? $3,00o in payments for jobs that we had been waiting on for months. Ya’ll, He turned my $300 into $3,000 in MINUTES.
I could go on and on for days with examples of how God has showed up for us in both big and small (but significant) ways. But that’s the point. When you have to let go and depend on Him, as we have to continuously as we run our business, we get to really see what He can do! THAT is the perk no one talks about. When you work a normal 9-5, you make what you make and for the most part you make it whether you are the best employee or the least productive. But when that veil of security is pulled off, all that’s left is the grind and the opportunity to see God make a way. I’m so thankful He has opened my eyes to see Him work, and to know His presence. I am thankful that through those rough times He was always there to lift us up.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat? or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Matthew 7:25-34 ESV